I have started this post many times in my mind, this is the first time I have started typing. This has been the case for a few months now. The purging of story and emotion has subsided, at least for now, and another transition is taking place. Now there are new things to develop awareness of, things I need to pay careful attention to, and things I need to learn about.
I began this project a little over a year ago now, and it has been everything I needed it to be. I developed new understandings about human behaviour, and new levels of self awareness. I learned to set boundaries and regulate my behaviour to meet my own needs rather than always prioritising others. And I learned that ‘crafting’ or ‘manifesting’ is simply a matter of setting intentions and committing to the behaviours that match your aspirations.
The initial project ‘And she flies…’ was about me learning to live life after committing career suicide. Turns out my professional identity has possibly been in a coma rather than dead, but the point is, the project enabled me to reject and let go of the norms and expectations that repressed my authentic nature. I was able to surface, examine and purge the assumptions I absorbed from being part of polite society, the superficial corporate class. Caught up in the web of polite small talk and loose tie connections, it is hard to see how our roles and titles influence our lives, our thoughts, our behaviours; our relationships with the people we love.
The second stage of the project ‘Her Love’, has enabled me to explore who I have become, what is left of me after the purge. Who am I when I stop being who society told me I should be? I’ve explored and experimented with archetypes and revisited purpose and meaning, both at an existential level and in the realm of the mundane. Who am I to the people who love me? What purpose do I chose to serve? Now free of fear and expectation, I can hear the goddesses speak more clearly.
The next stage is about rebirth, renewal, resetting, and revival.
Here’s to fresh starts, new beginnings, second chances, new life, rejuvenation, and revival. All the rewards that come from the energy and effort you have put into transforming, to being the best version of your self you can be. Here’s to those of us walking the path, falling in holes, and getting back up to do it again. Keep going. It’s worth it. We are all making a difference. ~ Simone B’Free.
And so, I write this post to let you know that I will intentionally take some time away from this blog now, a month or two, as my family and I transition to a new home and a new way of living.
I will be back, early in 2023 with a new perspective, from a new location, and with a new project…
In the meantime, I hope that the holiday season begins you love and joy, and I hope that you are healthy and free of the worst of life’s suffering. I wish you warmth if you are in winter, I wish you a cool gentle breeze if you are in summer. May you have food on your table and loved ones to share it with.
May you be happy,
May you be healthy,
May you be free from suffering.
With my very best wishes and love to all,
With metta (loving kindness),
Simone B’Free x
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